Last year was a year of awakening and reflection. 2020 was about looking inward and examining myself. I completed a full inspection of my humanity with a focus on studying my trauma and the ways in which it manifests in my behavior, relationships, and self-concept (shout out to my therapist!). With this new level of awareness and understanding, I look forward.

There are two words that will guide me in 2021. 

The first word is discipline. Discipline has always been something I struggled with. I have battled with discipline with money, discipline with food when I feel stressed out, discipline with fortifying my personal boundaries and holding others accountable when they breach my boundaries, and discipline with monitoring how much I allow my mind to be steered and robbed by negativity and fear. I have set my intentions for this year and I owe it to myself, my ancestors, my loved ones, and God to transcend the unhealthy habits of my past and put in the effort required to reach my goals. I want to remain disciplined with healing in therapy, exploring what brings me pleasure, and creating healthy spiritual, emotional, mental, physical, and financial habits. 

The second word is alignment. Discipline is in service to alignment. This year I work to increase and solidify my alignment with God and the universe. I have been out of alignment over the last few years. I have felt worn out, run down, confused, anxious, resentful, and energetically low. I have lived the life of someone who is asleep which included dealing with static in my spiritual journey, trying to control and order my own steps, giving my power away, and dealing with the emotional consequences of my misalignment in silence. When one is out of alignment they focus on using outside factors, items, and people to make themselves feel better. When a person is in alignment they embrace an honest inner knowing (you don’t lie to yourself when you are aligned), relinquish their addiction to control (enjoying genuine faith in yourself, God, the universe, your ancestors, and others) and forgive themselves for the harm they have caused themselves and others. When one is in alignment they know that all the things that will bring them authentic joy reside within. Alignment births laughing and joy, physical energy, creative flow, relational connection, abundance, emotional and mental balance, and a kinetic attraction to things and people that are good for your spirit. I want all of these things for myself and I know that 2021 will be the start of walking from out of the shadows. I look forward to giving myself a round of applause in the mirror at the end of this year.